The One I'd Always Dreamed of Being

Started for the track late Friday morning and after walking about a block decided I hadn't dressed well enough for the 12 to 14-degree weather. And I knew, if I was feeling it on the way to the track, the wind would push that bone-chilling cold right through me once I actually got there.

So I headed back to the house to change into a heavier base layer, add another pair of socks and maybe get out my fleece cycling pants. But when I got to the house I realized I didn't have time for all that before picking up my grandson at school, etc. Besides which I'd been feeling guilty about skipping my other exercises the past few days.

Dunno why but I've felt really exhausted some days. Part of it's getting up at night to use the bathroom and some of it's from sharing a room with my grandson. The little boy kicks and fidgets in his sleep and I often wake up to make sure he's covered and that he's breathing OK. (He has asthma.)

I'm not sure that's the whole of it but, between being tired and having to fit things in around five other schedules, I've been opting more frequently to do either the walk or the stretching/strengthening. Problem is, I'm not gonna reach the goals I've set for overall fitness and readiness for work (should that opportunity present itself).

Anyway, I've decided I have to get back into the stretching and strengthening so that's what I've done for the past several days. In the meantime, the tree is up and decorated (bah-humbug), the presents have been shipped to the west coast, and the house, except for the kitchen, is a wreck.

I've also been signing checks for my dad's estate, gathering the necessary documents to sell his car to my son, and cooking a meal here and there. Given that I've never pretended to be a multi-tasker, life has increasingly felt like a struggle to survive with the outcome sometimes in doubt.

And every so often I drift away to one of those places like Key West where I ply the Intercostal Highway on a Can-Am Spyder and otherwise become the one I'd always dreamed of being...

LPK
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12.20.2009