Fulfillment
Nov. 15th, 2009 01:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thisnewdayYears ago, my father struck out at the very thing that he needed most in his own life, jealous, I think, that I had it in mine. What I had, back then, was the unconditional love of my maternal grandmother, the one in whose home my mother and I lived for the two years my father was in Europe during the war.
Over the years, I've come to understand that there were lots of other things in play at that aweful moment. And now that he's lying, sick and alone, on his way out of this life that he worked so hard to live, I find myself trying to remember that.
Still, it's the other part that's hard to forget when I feel compelled to make a choice between the emotional needs of my own precious grandson and those of a father who, so late in life, came to recognize and seek fulfillment of his own...
LPK
LiveJournal
11.15.2009
Over the years, I've come to understand that there were lots of other things in play at that aweful moment. And now that he's lying, sick and alone, on his way out of this life that he worked so hard to live, I find myself trying to remember that.
Still, it's the other part that's hard to forget when I feel compelled to make a choice between the emotional needs of my own precious grandson and those of a father who, so late in life, came to recognize and seek fulfillment of his own...
LPK
LiveJournal
11.15.2009
