Not Over Yet, But
Jun. 24th, 2017 04:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thisnewdayTonight, this morning, I'm still wondering: is this how it ends?
I went to the doctor, yesterday, my lungs beginning to fill as they never had before. He said it was good that I'd come in, not waited until after the weekend.
He said it was an infection and started me on an antibiotic. They also ordered a new nebulizer and compressor to replace the worn and broken ones that had been my grandson's.
Even though I'd gone into it feeling otherwise, I thought, well maybe this can work, maybe I can recover. Maybe this is not the time when I'll join my wife beneath that chunk of rose-colored granite with our names on it..
So I took my pill and did my treatments, one right before bedtime; was so exhausted that I fell asleep with the lights on, uncovered, half sitting up.
And when I awoke, at 4 AM, it was there again, much stronger, the ache, the rattle, the congestion in my chest. And I thought, well, this is apparently not over yet.
Then, as I struggled against the pain, of fatigued and torn thoracic muscles, I thought again: not over yet but maybe soon will be...
LPK
@Dreamwidth
6.24.2017
I went to the doctor, yesterday, my lungs beginning to fill as they never had before. He said it was good that I'd come in, not waited until after the weekend.
He said it was an infection and started me on an antibiotic. They also ordered a new nebulizer and compressor to replace the worn and broken ones that had been my grandson's.
Even though I'd gone into it feeling otherwise, I thought, well maybe this can work, maybe I can recover. Maybe this is not the time when I'll join my wife beneath that chunk of rose-colored granite with our names on it..
So I took my pill and did my treatments, one right before bedtime; was so exhausted that I fell asleep with the lights on, uncovered, half sitting up.
And when I awoke, at 4 AM, it was there again, much stronger, the ache, the rattle, the congestion in my chest. And I thought, well, this is apparently not over yet.
Then, as I struggled against the pain, of fatigued and torn thoracic muscles, I thought again: not over yet but maybe soon will be...
LPK
@Dreamwidth
6.24.2017
