Nothing Left
Oct. 10th, 2008 05:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thisnewdaySomehow, I need to get myself out of this. I'm deep in the middle of one of those times when token concessions from those around me are not nearly enough. And right now I'm rational enough, and strong enough, to realize that that's all I'm likely to get.
Then, I start thinking about getting up on Monday morning and calling a lawyer. Putting it all out there on the table in that horrible, harsh light that lawyers are paid to shine on things. Putting my own life and the lives of others on the table, like so many stacks of chips, and placing my bet.
Maybe that's what has been missing for me. My wife has always been the gambler and clearly has the upper hand. Any love we ever had is long since gone. All that's left is this neglected house and the accumulated debt of so many wasted years.
So what's left to lose? I don't know. What in hell are we still trying to protect when what we feel is that there's nothing left...
Then, I start thinking about getting up on Monday morning and calling a lawyer. Putting it all out there on the table in that horrible, harsh light that lawyers are paid to shine on things. Putting my own life and the lives of others on the table, like so many stacks of chips, and placing my bet.
Maybe that's what has been missing for me. My wife has always been the gambler and clearly has the upper hand. Any love we ever had is long since gone. All that's left is this neglected house and the accumulated debt of so many wasted years.
So what's left to lose? I don't know. What in hell are we still trying to protect when what we feel is that there's nothing left...
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Date: 2008-10-11 09:54 am (UTC)'cept i've not been in it so long.
uft.