dunno what i'm gonna do

[thisnewday]

i've got it again. the terrible fatigue, chills, low-grade fever, rattling in the chest. it's uncomfortable to lie down because, as soon as i do, i start coughing. and, although i took my walk this morning, i simply didn't have the energy to do my streching/strengthening exercises.

i'm really unhappy about this because the last time this happened, the last time i surrendered to it, i lost so much of my hard-won fitness. i really can't see myself doing this over and over again and each time settling for a lower level of fitness and overall health.

dunno what i'm gonna do. live or die, i guess...