All There Is
Dec. 23rd, 2018 03:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thisnewdayThere were bills to pay including my credit card which had several big expenses this month including car repairs, my grandson's Chromebook which he needed for school, and Christmas gift cards for the grandchildren.
And so I went looking for my bank info which I thought might be in one of several steno pads that I had brought downstairs. Which I knew were from when I first moved in here and was living with the still-fresh trauma of her illness and death.
But I wasn't thinking about that and I opened the pages and there it was.
And I could barely walk up the stairs, could barely see to sit here and write this because this is all there is, all that can be done.
And it's not enough but. it's. all. there. is...
LPK
Dreamwidth
12.23.2018
And so I went looking for my bank info which I thought might be in one of several steno pads that I had brought downstairs. Which I knew were from when I first moved in here and was living with the still-fresh trauma of her illness and death.
But I wasn't thinking about that and I opened the pages and there it was.
And I could barely walk up the stairs, could barely see to sit here and write this because this is all there is, all that can be done.
And it's not enough but. it's. all. there. is...
LPK
Dreamwidth
12.23.2018
