To My Grandson: Living a Good Life

What I need to get across to my grandson is that living a good life is much more than simply not doing the wrong things. It's doing the right things with whatever opportunities present themselves at any given moment. It's showing that you appreciate your life, and the people in it, by actively making the most and the best of what you are and what you have...

LPK
@Dreamwidth
5.10.2017

Regret

I wish that there had been room for me to lie with her in the hospital bed, as she wanted me to, to comfort her. Maybe there was room and I was simply stopped by a foolish sense of propriety, a lack of understanding of what was truly important at that moment.

Anyway, whatever it was that held me back, I didn't do it.

And now, that moment is woven inextricably into the past.  I think of that and the countless other things that I could have done to comfort her and did not; I think of things, throughout our lifetime together, that I could've done but did not.

To say that I live now with regret is an understatement beyond what I could say if I had two lifetimes still ahead of me. Of course if I had them, and used them for that, it would do the same amount of good.

And so, I read my books and think about these things. I think about our plans and what we had hoped to accomplish, with our new life, in this new place.

And hope that she understood that I was prepared to love her unconditionally and to help her have that life, or any life that she chose to have, after that...

LPK
@Dreamwidth
5.10.2017